思绪是复杂的 心灵是空虚的

我失去了以前的我

那个自信的我

那个快乐的我

那个真正的我

跌进了无底洞

跌得好深 跌得好痛

跌得我负伤累累

跌得我欲哭无泪

我无法面对我自己

更无法面对我的家人

生命中的起起落落

来不及闪躲

躲不开 也避不了

唯有学会去接受

学会去承担

学会去负责

或许这是一个考验

一个让我成长的考验

我应该欣然接受它

挑战它 感谢它

为我的故事谱写一篇精彩的页章

有低潮的失落 也有高潮的喝彩

至少我的生命不是一条直线

一条直直的平行线

因为这些起伏

我学会了珍惜身边的每一个人 事 物

也遇到了一位来自天堂的天使

天使在我最沮丧的时候给我鼓励

在我最无助的事后给我打气

天使纯洁的心灵融化了我的心

感恩 这位可爱的天使

海浪 如果没有礁石

就不会激起美丽的浪花

天空 如果没有暴雨

就不会出现绚丽的彩虹

人生不也一样么？

就让这些考验磨练我的缺点

让我变得更努力 更坚强 更上一层楼

加油！

Dear the lovely Universe,

I will pass all the four subjects in my professional exam.

        The professional exam was ended and i'm writing a letter to the Universe. Applying the Law of Attraction, i hope the Universe does receive my little request with my positive wavelength and my gratitude towards everything that surrounding me and happens in my life. Yes, i did encountered some miracles or unbelievable things happened in my life recently & i felt that it just happened to be so coincidentally. I shared some knowledge i know about The Law of Attraction to some people too, and are happy to share with them and i do hope that this awesome & incredible law that make some changes, in fact is BIG changes in their life!

        I brought the book "The Secret" by Rhoda Byrne back to years ago when i was in the secondary school and "The Power" before i entered into university and felt so happy that i was attracted to this awesome book and know the greatest secret in the book. I'm so lucky that among all the peers, i was the earliest one "exposed" or introduced to this law but back to that time i didn't applied it well in my life until recently i found out it did happened when i was totally in the positive mood. Basically the Law of Attraction is about the three main things, firstly, send your requests or whatever you want to the Universe; second, visualize your dream and feel like and believe that you're actually having them; lastly, appreciate and feel gratitude to the things that surround and happened to you and always in the positive mindset. Whatever we think about and thank about we bring about, so dream big, feel it and believe it!

        I downloaded the videos of The Secret in my mobile phone and watched them whenever i need some positive energy and before i go to bed. I feel so motivated and grateful after watching those videos and believe that our destiny are written by our own, we're the author or the director or the architect of our own life. If you need some positive energy or motivation, the video here are for sure the greatest source of your happiness. Enjoy!

p/s: Hope she'll meet her prince charming soon and hope he will pass his professional exam :)

        It has been a thousand year ago since the day i last updated my blog. These few weeks were fulled of exams, events & activities that nearly took my breath away. So now started the study weeks (thank God it's weeks not week) before facing the dreadful, awful & fearful exams, and this time, the professional exams. It seems like i'm putting some kilos (kilos? hopefully is grams) on my weight since the exams are nearer, gosh! The only main reason i can figured out is we (the soon-to-be-candidates-of-professional-exams) nearly spend more than or at least 10 hours a day (for some i guess?) sitting like applied the super duper sticky glue on their asses to be fixed on the chair, in front of the table facing the notes without moving around or even blinking their eyes. For me, to overcome this shitty stress, i'm sort of finding food every time & everywhere, that's why my belly is getting rounder & rounder, my ass is getting fuller & plumper, not to forget my face is getting fatter & fatter, aaaawwwwww!

        Okay, let me update you the events that happened this few weeks.

1. "Escape To Japan" Dental Annual Dinner  
So we were escaped to Japan, Hokkaido if i were given the chance to choose where to escape haha! The annual dinner was held at Mega View Banquet Deck, KL Tower. The banner was labelled with "Come experience Japan at 288m from sea level" & everything looked so grand & splendid.  Many of my coursemates were wearing kimono & yukata & had their make-up & hairdo at outside. For me, five of us worked together to have our make-up & hairdo done by ourselves because we had to come earlier to KL Tower for rehearsal. Forgot to mention that i was one of the dancers that performed the fans dance on that night! So i had the chance to wear kimono for the performance & later changed to my dress on that night. The officers at KL Tower gave their best services to each & every tourists, it made us feel like a VIP, but for the food i just rated 6/10 for them because i cannot enjoyed with those fish, shrimp, meat & chicken (not even the sushi) much due to the performance. My lucky no. 177 also managed to let me went up to stage to have my lucky draw prize haha! Below are some of the pictures taken from several hands, i didnt manage to upload mine due to my handphone was spoiled on that night wtf.

#1 Group photo

#2 Together as a family

#3 Dede family emo-ing

#4 Mashi, lavonne, me, sweetie & bih aka cb khaw

#5 Our table, Chiba.

Spot my lucky no. 177 on the gift bag!

#6 Act cute

#7 Five of us worked together 团结团结就是力量!

#8 Another group photo

#9 With all the lengluis

#10 With my fifth year buddy, Xinyi

#11 Thanks Justin for this photo

#12 I have an awesome camerawoman

to take awesome picture for me!

#13 Awesome night view of KL Twins Tower from KL Tower!

2. The Study Weeks
Finally we had came to this week. Hopefully i dont put more kilos on any part of my body anymore for my own good sake. What i have to do in these two weeks is stay focus, focus & focus! Gonna find a super duper triple sticky glue to apply on my ass so i can fixed on the chair facing all the notes all day round.

3. The Old Man
Many of my friends described me as an old man, because i like to listen to old songs, songs that back to centuries ago that even you haven't been born yet. I like classical music the most, followed by recently-addicted-Andrea-Bocelli. Let me introduce to you one of his master piece besides Con te Partiro, one of my favourite too, The White Christmas. Lets watch & feel the greatness of his voice here. Besides old songs, old classical musics, i also like things that in romantic vintage style. That's really old weird me.

4. Piranha 3DD
I watch this movie at Pavilion last Saturday. Ohh i dont know how to describe this movie, this movie was even worse than the first episode. The piranhas were so fake, so do the BIG boobs of those ladies that wore bikinis. I think many people came to experience the so called 3DD double effect, for the BIG boobs i guess? Hmm.

        I strongly feel that tonight will having a stupid fire drill that kacau people when everybody is busy studying on this particular so called "study week". That fire drill will definitely make everybody "study weak", so all KTSNites, watch out & be ready to lock your door & switch off all the lights & fans when the bell rings tonight!