最近身心疲惫

累了 倦了

透了 也开窍了

很赞同这几句朋友告诉我的话：

"The less you care, the happier you are"

“上了考场就是一个人的事了”

以为自己能很潇洒的面对所有的事情

但其实事实并不是如此

原来 我也会害怕

当困难降临时那种没有人跟你一同共同进退的心情

是多么的可怕

可怕的不是困难

可怕的是 因为这些经历

让你认清自己的位置

更让你看清身边的人

其实我一直都很在意

尤其是我身边的每一个人

因为我就是这样

有福同享 有难同当

认定是好朋友了就不会放弃对方

我不会介意一起受苦 一起挨骂

但可悲的是

有些朋友并不是这样
他们对每一个人都很好 因为要为自己留后路
当有困难就一副“最好不要牵涉到我”的表情

一遇到困难就退缩 逃跑

到头来还不是为了自己

我不怪他们

每个人都有自己的生活方式

可能这是他们怕死怕输的人的求生方式而已
越是单纯的人 越不简单

这世上形形色色 五光十色
人不为己 天诛地灭
说的准确一点

大学就是半个社会

然而 很庆幸能遇到几位志同道合的好朋友
谢谢你们在我沮丧时为我加油打气
谢谢你们在我无助时听我述说心声
你们一定要加油
我们约定好谁也不能抛弃谁
一定要一起升上第二学年啊

想当年 中学时代
我们秉持着“同心协力 对抗恶势力”的精神
经历风风雨雨
一起欢笑 一起落泪
一起加油 一起打气
即使日子再坏 我都不怕
因为有一班陪你共同进退的死党陪在你身边

突然 好想念你们

Life in the university is like that
study, study and study
that's your responsibility
your responsibility to add-on your notes
your responsibility to find extra info
your responsibility to seeking knowledge out of the textbooks
your responsibility to get GOOD gred in your exam

I'm not saying that i dont like to study
i studied hard when i was in secondary school and in matriculation college too
but it's only when exam is around the corner
but back to that time you have bunch of friends fighting together with you
even though the time is harsh
the study is hard
there're always friends accompanied you to go through these hard times
we went to library together
we missed called our friends to wake them up to study
we discussed and shared what we had studied
that feelings made you worked even harder

But back to here
the university life
everyone is studying alone
the one who got good or excellent greds in every single exams will certainly got lot of so-called "friends" around them when the exam is nearer
that's the reality

I admitted that i was lazy in semester one
so i'm trying hard in my semester two
i'm so happy that i got B- in one of the Oral Biology minitest
but the happiness didn't last long
the next day our faculty came out a rank list based on our end-of-sem one results
not included all the minitests in semester one
a shitty piece of list, indeed
it had spoilt my mood
forget about it
let the bygones be bygones
i should work harder to prove to them
hopefully i can find those spirit and motivation back

Let's wait and see.

从槟城回到吉隆坡的漫长的路途中
选择古典音乐的洗礼
从贝多芬和莫扎特的交响乐
到维瓦蒂的四季乐曲
让我摆脱那即将回到像个自闭区的校园的不愿意
摆脱面对考试的压力
摆脱离开家人和朋友的不舍
犹如赴一场让心灵宁静的古典盛宴

找回那个以前的味道
那种对古典音乐的坚持和热诚
别人总是不解
为什么我偏偏爱它们
贝多芬 莫扎特 维瓦蒂 柴可夫斯基 帕格尼尼 施特劳斯
可以和他们一起读书 一起入睡
不分昼夜
就连光碟乐曲的次序我也熟悉透了

没有歌词的乐曲
述说着不同的故事
而我的坚持
让这些故事继续延续下去

每一朵玫瑰都有刺
正如每个人的性格里
都有你不能容忍的部分
爱护每一朵玫瑰
并不是努力的把它的刺根除
而是学习如何不被它的刺     刺伤
以及     不让自己的刺
刺伤他人

--- 几米

        Last thursday my friends planned to celebrate my 20th birthday in advance in the Pavilion's Manhattan Fish Market due to an advertisement.

        The MFM was having a promotion on that day & the fish & chips set was only RM 6.99! Although it was just a few hours celebration, all of us really enjoyed & had lot of fun! After finished our lunch, a lady (a worker there) suddenly took out a birthday cake & heading it to me & all of them were singing birthday song to me! I paused for a moment, felt really surprised & all the people in the MFM were actually looking at us! I nearly burst out into tears! After making the three wishes & blew out the two candles, we were all enjoying the macha cake with red beans from Bread Talk as our desserts.

The MFM fish & chips! Yummy!

Bih, lavonne, fishy, mashi & wei

Mashi, jiayi, schean & fishy 

Me, schean, jiayi, jying & sweetie

The ladies

The only guy

With sweetie

With my dearest roommate jiayi

Cute schean 

Pretty lavonne

Skinny wei 

Fishy with the birthday cake

With bih

 With mashi

With jying

With the only guy justin 

My birthday cake

        Actually my birthday was fell on sunday this year, 1st of April, yes it was April's fool day. So i had another celebration on the weekends! We had our dinner in Fahrenheit's Zanmai sushi & watched a movie "One For The Money" starring Katherine Heigl in Pavilion's GSC cinema on saturday & went to Mid Valley on sunday. A blissful & enjoyable weekends indeed. Thanks Jonathan for coming to KL to celebrate my birthday & gave me an unforgettable memory!

Me in Pavilion

Jonathan

In Zanmai sushi

The special gift which fulls of blessings from my dear friends

I love you guys!

A beautiful gift from my coursemates!

I love them so much!

        Finally, i'm officially 20! Forgot to mention about my lovely family also sent a birthday card for me but sadly i haven't got it yet. My daddy also posted a birthday e-card on my facebook wall on that day! Haha! I miss them very much. Will meet them very soon because i'll back to Penang after the Oral Biology minitest this friday! Excited!